2 papers down! Another 4 more to go =( But somehow exam days have been good! Not the exam itself but after that. Managed to forget about what's done and move on to the next paper. Awesome dinner with the boy after the first paper last friday. Too bad he was meeting his friends after that. But really grateful he met me for dinner. His treat! How can I say no =D

Went to study after the paper today. Gfie and zk came too. I have no idea why zk wanna start studying so early when he starts school in like august? Hahaha! He's too hardworking. But it's good that he was there also. Can help gfie with her work because I have no idea what she's doing so can't help her. And the bf made a surprise visit at night! Apparently he made his army friends drive to jcube for dinner then "shun bian" come and see me hahaha! <3 Great that he came. Been missing him although I'd just met him on Saturday. I don't know. Maybe it's the stress that makes me want to have people around me haha.

Really worried for wednesday and thursday's papers though. Haven't finished studying yet :S time to really buck up. No nonsense anymore! Start by sleeping early =D Hope tomorrow is a fruitful day! =)

Auriel's starting her poly life tomorrow. Very proud of her for getting into poly, hopefully doing something she's interested in. Make new friends (poly still can make friends lah) and have a great time. It just hit me how old she actually is now. I still remember being very protective of her and also very worried about her. To the extent that I'm afraid she doesn't know how to go home alone when I go out with her and go off to meet another friend halfway lol. But that was years ago. She's so big now. I sound like a mum haha. I don't know if it's some older sister syndrome or something. Don't know if other big sisters feel the same way. Hope all goes well for her (=

FINALLY!





Done with the stupid liposome quiz. Imagine 69 levels of 4 questions each. Get one wrong and you drop one level -.- So at least 276 questions zzz. Good thing I had cheat sheet =) But still super frustrating. Glad that's over.

First paper is next friday! Not prepared at all. Hope all goes well. Looking forward to studying with the girls! ^^

Wheee!!


Birthday..


after birthday..


after birthday! (sorry stupid picture can't rotate)

And it's my turn! ^^


My cake was damn good I swear. Not as awesome as the swissbake one a few years ago but still good. Didn't realise how good four leaves cakes are.


Awesome people being awesome, celebrating my birthday with me ^^ I had plenty of fun! And btw thanks melly for planning and liaising with everyone haha! And I just realised that I left the cake at JL's place! Didn't get to eat it. I wonder if it's still there =/


And of course, what's a birthday without presents teehee! Not many to brag but these are truly heartfelt, yes, even the cadbury. And it's the first time ever someone's baked a cake just for me for my birthday!

This year's birthday seemed so surreal on so many levels. Really wasn't expecting so many (good) things to happen. Super touched by some people that I haven't been grateful for. It was quite a wake up call actually. And when I heard that besties thought of me straight away when they saw that watch there was a stirring in my gut haha! It was a weird sense of elation and warmth mixed with affection and grattitude. You know that feeling when you realise people have actually been thinking of you and doing things for you. Or maybe it was just my hormones acting up haha! But really though, I was just really amazed at how awesome the people in my life are. I hope I can be a better friend from here on out =)


Anyways, the "urge to do something crazy" was just cutting and dyeing my hair lah hahaha.


Yes it's supposed to be flaming red but in the end it's not even close really. It's actually from Janis cos she bought too many haha. So yea.

It sort of failed though. Because the colour was quite uneven. As in the underneath didn't have colour and the tips were like my natural hair colour so ya. Decided to get another box (different shade though) and re-dye my hair. Still red though! I would take a nice pic but I don't know why cameras can't capture the actual colour that's on my head right now. It's like they can't capture light at about 650nm. Mehh. You'll have to meet me to know how I look like then =)

I'm actually just realising this now, this is the first time I'm actually dyeing my whole head. The last time I coloured my hair was only highlights. And this time I've dyed my hair twice in 4 days haha! Hope the colour doesn't fade =)

Neglecting this space for so long. Really going to get more busy this March and even worse when April comes along. Assignments starting to pile up and there are still 3 more tests to go before exams come.

I know I've had quite a lot of fun recently, with birthdays and birthdays and more birthdays. And pretty soon it will be my turn! But somehow my brain doesn't register all the fun I had and just promptly forgets about it. I really feel as though I've been cooped up at home for the longest time.

Anyways, I have an urge to do something crazy. Will reveal it after my birthday =)

oh my gosh it's march already.

Was talking with ys on the way home the other day and he was saying he actually wanted to go travel instead of studying. How awesome it would be if I actually did that. Like a vagabond. I don't know if it's the right term but that's how he put it. Like just go travel to wherever you want to go and when you need money just do some odd jobs. Quite liberating actually.

But I guess in Singapore you'll hardly hear people doing this kind of thing, especially at our age. Maybe those slightly older and feel like they need a change in life would do this. But I think to travel at a young age will be so much more exciting and enjoyable since you have all the energy and enthusiasm to be more daring to try new things.
All I think of is "if only this if only that". when will I really be courageous enough to do the things I want to? Do I even know what I want?
I wonder what I'll be doing in the future eh. Quite scary since now we have this module where we're supposed to write our resumes to be graded =/ looking at job adverts, some are quite interesting but a lot require experience although they say fresh grads are encouraged to apply. Don't know why. Oh wells. Take things one step at a time.

Test is tomorrow night at 10pm. Half an hour online test. Prof said do as much as you can, seniors say sure cannot finish one. I just want to have time to finish studying for it.

So valentine's day has come and gone. It's super obvious who had a date after school and who didn't because of the way they dress. And you see girls walking around with flowers and balloons. And almost all the stalls and push carts are selling valentine's day-related items with free photo taking lol.

My day was quite uneventful. Full day of school till 7pm )= went home after that and kor was like "WHY ARE YOU HOME???" So funny. So I went out LOL. But I had assignment discussion at like 10pm so I was on the computer the whole time and he was just reading his magazines haha. But we had fun the next day =) Oh and he tried the cake! He said it's sweet. No more cake for him.


He looks funny here =D




Feel so busy but when I think back, I have no idea what I was busy doing. =/ Although recess week is coming, not really looking forward to it. Test next week which I haven't studied for. Assignments due next week, during recess week, after recess week and 2 weeks after that. Some bonding session during recess week also. And I plan to get my shit together then. Time to start preparing for exams. And another test before that. Should really try to learn the malay words. Should I S/U? I don't wanna waste it. Le sigh.

Awwwwwww!

People in long relationships would often feel like their partners don't love them as much as before, or that they don't feel loved.

For simplicity's sake, I'm gonna say that the girl in the relationship is feeling un-loved ok.

I was talking about this with a friend and he said that the guy probably stopped doing something which caused the girl to feel that way. There's always a cycle of action in any relationship where both parties feel loved, no matter how small the action is. So when the bf suddenly stops doing something, of course the girl will feel less loved. But that doesn't mean he doesn't love her anymore, nor does it mean that the girl is a demanding gf. It's just that something's missing from the norm, again, no matter how small the thing is, even subconsciously.

JL also mentioned that it's quite selfish, like you expect your partner to do every single thing that he's been doing from the start. I guess it's somewhat like taking things for granted? Like you keep thinking that they'll always do the things they do but I guess you have to appreciate too. And actually show it. Everyone likes to be appreciated for the things they do, even in small ways.